Okay, I just had a conversation with someone and they asked if I was cranky.  I think I am.  Why?  Have you ever taken a negative attitude with someone or against something and couldn't exactly put your finger on it?  I have self anaylized (there is no spell ck on this thing??).  Something that saves me a lot of money. hee hee.  I guess I am having some internal junk....I am tired..hungry...feeling like my "dieting" is out of hand and I am going to gain my weight back instead of lose some more this summer.'

But mostly..guilt..guilt that I didn't do or couldn't do this "thing" years ago and that I should try now but I don't think I can handle it .  Or could I?  Its taking in a troubled child if your tired of guessing.  I absolutely love my kids but I think that I am at my limit.  Is that realistic, selfish...or what...Don't answer.  Aren't we all capable of gettting up to bat if necessary.  Sure we say it is our life and we have to live it to our desires.  Really?  Completely?  Isn't there also that little bit of us that wants to be the hero because it feels good not necessarily because we can do something?

Okay, I am done now.  Oh, sometimes I think we are just grouchy.  Smack yourself and get over it.  I am smacking myself right now....

Day one

I am so excited to finally have a place to air all of my thoughts. Good, bad, and...edited to a point. Special thanks to April....my inspiration.

This is going to be just my thoughts.....about me...so some things may not be your cup of tea. However, if you know me...it should be interesting. I ask that you not be offended if all ideas aren't yours. This is just a place to think and share because sometimes I am smart, dumb and interesting. All in the same day. Oh, I forgot boring! Some posts will be serious and some not..just like me. ...... all of these dots are for someone who once ventured a card making career with me. That went far, didn't it.

I am finishing up my temporary career as a tax preparer. That was fun! Now, I am back to being just a mom. But there is no JUST in mom. I am finishing up my associates degree--long time coming--like since 1992..hee hee but I am finishing.

I am deciding to go on our not....to be continued